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How to Find What You're Looking For

When I was a kid, I used to love riding my bike around my neighborhood. I would wave to all the people I knew and stop when I felt like having a chat.

One day, I saw Gail sitting on her front lawn. Her face was fixed on the cluster of clovers in front of her. I stopped, wondering what she was doing.

"I'm looking for four-leafed clovers," she said. She had already accumulated a bunch in her lap.

I sat down to help her with no avail. She found another again. And again. Frustrated that I couldn't find one, I left to go home.

close-up of four leaf clover
Photo by Dustin Humes on Unsplash

I lost my job two weeks ago. Although it came as a surprise since they had scheduled me for the fall, I can't say I was disappointed. I've been trying to leave higher ed for a long time.

Since 2013, I've been looking for a new job. I went on dozens of interviews at various universities all over the East Coast. I finally settled at La Salle University the fall of 2018.

But I wasn't happy. I realized that I was unhappy because I wasn't doing what I loved doing. People asked me, "What do you REALLY want to do?"